Moving To A Different Province

So, I did indeed move outside of the province of where I originally live with my family. At first I was excited and so happy that I got this chance to do something I have a desire for… But, as a couple weeks went by I was having trouble with roommates and I felt like I couldn’t handle it… well I did; kind of a blunt person. The thing is I find it hard sharing a place with two people I don’t know. I had to get a lock on my door because I didn’t know if I could trust them since I had fought with them so much. I called my dad and told him I was thankful I never had any sisters! Drama, drama, drama…

In college I thought things would change, but everything was just like High School all over again… I was/am really disappointed. As it got near the middle of February coming up to our two week break, I struggled a lot. I cried and wish I could just go home to give me more strength by seeing my family. I just couldn’t afford to go home, but my brother called me and said, “Sis I am going home for Valentines weekend want to come?” I was so ecstatic and said, “YES!!!” The four days I was able to be home just made me glad and made me appreciate my family more than I ever have.

When I got back to my basement suite the struggles began again, I feel like a outcast, still do. But, I hid behind my smile, laughter, technology, etc. All my problems since I was fifteen I have avoided had been eating away at me on the inside. As I was looking through my assignments one of them was a technology fast assignment. I could not use any form of social media, but with the exception of calling home, for four days. This caused me to come face to face with all my fears and struggles that were standing in the way of my relationship with Jesus Christ. There were a lot of tears and a lot of prayers. [I will talk more about this in another post.]

The trip back home six hours of driving, a fight broke out between my brother and I. His words cut me deep, he never wants to hear my voice or see my face again. I know that he didn’t mean these words, but the fact is I was close to him as a child and he is all I got. I don’t want to lose him. The fact is I haven’t talked to him since February eighteenth, so prayers would be greatly appreciated for I really do miss him for he only lives half an hour away from me as of right now.

Well, all I can say is when school is done in the middle of April I will be filled with joy and gladness to go home and see my family/friends and my puppies again!!

The Life of A College Student,

Cassandra Falun

Five Weeks!

WOW!! I can not believe how fast school has gone. Five more weeks and school is out. To look back and see that I took a leap of faith and moved out in January to a different province to go to school I am in shock. Knowing God laid all the funds for everything right in the palm of my hands so that schooling for the first semester was possible is unbelievable! I have grown so much in this first semester, I don’t even know where to begin and things may be left out to talk about another time since it is super long.

When I was diagnosed with epilepsy at the age of fifteen I always asked God, “if you love me why would you do this to me?” As my epilepsy got worse my faith in God started to fade away. During that period of time I embarrassed myself a lot, not so much that I regret what I did, I just realize now I didn’t notice how much I was worth. After diagnoses after diagnoses I was tired of trying to be mad at God, so I let it go to see if miracles are real… well I can tell you they are because I have been seizure free for three years. Back then if you told me I would end up in college I would have disagreed with you, let alone Bible College. But, here I stand as I am rebuilding my faith I look onto what my future could be. Is God going to keep me going in this direction? I hope so. He has me standing here in Bible College learning about Children’s Ministry and how to be a Children’s Pastor. Something I have always had a passion for, Children! Not only that, I get the chance to be the change in those kids lives, this means the world to me. Anyways I’m signing off I will post tomorrow on my struggles living in a totally different province then my family and prayer.

The Life of A College Student,

Cassandra Falun

The End of The Holiness Of God

The Holiness of God was a fantastic book! I am now on a two week break of school and right before I left I got my mark back for this book that I had worked so hard on to try and get a really good mark or a perfect mark... I worried way too much because I ended up with a 13.5/15 (90%), that is good enough for me, because I know I tried.

As for now I am on the run with atleast three more assignments that need to be accomplished within these two weeks and I have a midterm exam a week and a half after I get back. Prayer would be greatly appreciated. Hoping all goes well! But, for now, Happy Valentines (I know it is just a Thursday ;P)! I get to go home for this weekend to spend it with my family, they are always a blessing!

The Life of A College Student

Blessings,

Cassandra Falun

Moving Away

Moving to go to College.
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When I came to the realization that I was moving 6 hours away from my family to attend school at the beginning of January I was scared yet excited.
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Now here I am at College since the 7th of January and I am doing great. Of course I miss seeing my family every once and a while but God has a calling for me and it is here right now. I am just attending 1 year for my Children's Ministry Certificate, but please pray for God to show me signs if I am supposed to come back and do 4 years.
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But, other than that I am alive! Eating, living, and homework... yaii!!!
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The Life Of A College Student,

Cassandra Falun

The Holiness Of God

So I am sooo busy that I will only have time to write every once and a while... But, here I am reading a book by R C Sproul called The Holiness Of God for my Theology class. It has an amazing perspective of things going on in this world and some things that you probably have never thought of.
.... This young man first states how the Old Testament opens with, "In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth." But, really we just look at it as the beginning of the book, the beginning of what Christ created for us. Then he states, "How was it done?" ... Ok now is your mind thinking a little bit? I can tell you mine sure was. 
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"In the beginning..." 
--------------It sounds like the beginning of a fairytale: "Once upon a time." The trouble is that in the beginning there was no time as we understand it to be "once upon," Sproul states.
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Well that got me in a deep discussion with my roommate on what came before Genesis like it explains in the book... Now come on you can't tell me that you are not saying/thinking, "well there was nothing but God."
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This was what Sproul shares with us that he got out of his Philosophy class.
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--------------But what in the world is "nothing?" Have you ever tried to think about nothing? Where can we find it? Obviously nowhere. Why? Because it is nothing, and nothing doesn't exist. It can't exist, because if it did, then it would be something and not nothing. Are you starting to get a headache like mine? Think about it for a second. O can't tell you to think about "it" because nothing isn't an "it." I can only say "nothing isn't." ... If we try thinking about nothing, we always wind up thinking about something.
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Ok. Now that is not cool... that changes my whole frame of mind on how us as human beings say, "I did nothing today..." You didn't do nothing you did something! Laid on the couch, watched TV, or whatever!!! But, we are using nothing in the wrong context. "Nothing" has a definition just like everything else in our vocabulary or should I say dictionary... My roommate Bre and I discussed this for four hours!! Can you believe that?! And we came to the conclusion that, something is not nothing, but saying nothing means you are hiding behind something... That's a lot to chew isn't it... As I tried to attempt to go to bed that night I stared at the ceiling for two hours thinking [ok... don't read this book before you are about to go to bed] about his description about "nothing" and "something." [There is so much more to subject, all I got to say is get the book and read it!!]
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Of course as you go on in the book there are a lot of different perspectives on different topics and lots that you will disagree on but it is fasinating on how people have a different frame of mind than others. I thought this was interesting so I had to blog it and share with y'all how the life is out in Bible College.
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The Life Of A College Student

Blessings,

Cassandra Falun

Apologies

I won't be writing anything until I move which is on the 5th-8th of January... man to much packing!! Oh my word! Never knew I had some of the things I have now found lol

Cassandra Falun

Contentment

If only I had straight hair… if only I were ten pounds thinner… if only that guy in class would notice me. If only. Sometimes our lives are ruled by the “if only’s” and the “what if’s” and the “I wishes.” Paul taught that our true contentment doesn’t come from our circumstances. Rather, it is found in Jesus—knowing him, trusting him and depending on his power for each day. When you focus on Jesus’ priorities and what he wants you to do rather than on what you wish you had, you will find genuine contentment.

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Philippians 4:10-13

I rejoice greatly in the LORD that at last you have renewed your concern for me. Indeed you have been concerned but have had no opportunity to show it. I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learnt to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learnt the secret of being content in every and any situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do everything through him who gives me strength.

Cassandra Falun

Joy

What are you like when you first wake up in the morning? Do you drag your crabby self out of bed and snap at whomever if they try to talk to you? Is it common knowledge that everyone should steer clear of you before 10:00 AM? How about changing your mindset? What would your day be like if your first thoughts were of God’s unfailing love and your first words to him were thanks? Maybe that would ease your worries and get you excited for the day. Hmmm… maybe you could become a morning person after all.

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Psalm 90:14

Satisfy us in the morning with your unfailing love, that we may sing for joy and be glad all our days.

Cassandra Falun

Bits and Pieces

A lot of people think prayer’s all about talking to God. Actually, prayer also involves God talking to you. Having trouble hearing Him? Quiet down and listen.

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Psalm 85:5

I will listen to what God the LORD will say; he promises peace to his people, his saints—but let them not return to folly.

Bible College!

So, it's time for me to leave the nest. On January 5th, 2013, I will be leaving for Bible College (Vanguard in Edmonton, Alberta). It is going to be one quick move that is for sure. Prayer would be greatly appreciated... God has spoken to me in many ways. I will be going for at least one year for my Children's Ministry Certificate. Children are my life! I don't know what I would do without them. So, this is the journey I have ahead of me. I am so blessed to have a young lady contact me before I even get there, Breann Ryan, she will be my roommate and I look forward to it. It ends up she is in the same course as I am so it is going to be a blast! (Pictures will be added too :P ). I will try my best to keep updates going frequently. Right now, it is chaos! Packing... Man I feel like I'm packing my entire house, but I am so excited to see what God has in store for me.

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Cassandra Falun

The Life Of

A College Student

Passion

          What is out deepest passion? Women? Men? Passion for fitting in? Which creates you to be someone totally different… Video Games? Scrapbooking? Sports? Etc. What do you find you put your heart and soul into the most? Our generation today has fixed their minds to what society is trying to sell to them. Women having to look like the models in the magazines, men all over women thinking they own them. Don’t get me wrong our generation; my generation has passion it is just misplaced. So, the real question is where is our passion supposed to lye? Misplaced passion is the huge majority of why our youth today is in amongst pain and hurt.

          We have passion and we are willing to do it with all our heart… but when it pleases us.

Colossians 3:23-24

Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart as working for the LORD, not for men. Since you know you with receive an inheritance from the LORD as a reward. It is the LORD Christ you are serving.

**PASSION CHANGES EVERYTHING**

          The Bible expresses it. We should not be filled with these worldly passions. You probably know the common ones. Drinking, drugs, lust, premarital sex, pornography, they eat at us from the inside out, a rebellious spirit, swearing, etc.

          Our passion should lye in the things we do showing Christ through us. Everything we do do should always be for the LORD.

Cassandra Falun

I may have opened a can of worms, but it is something our society needs to hear and see that those things are empty. Our work should be for the LORD God and it should please him, not disappoint him.

Meaning Behind The Title

So I have always labeled my blog as Faith On Fire. There is a reason behind this. I have been blogging since I don't know when... My mom got me started on this and she now has stopped blogging herself. But, the reason I still do it, is because I was taught to be strong in any circumstance. I have be through fire, but it has been faith that has brought me through. I am a miracle from birth and I still continue to call myself one because of all the things I've been diagnosed with that has almost killed me and things that have happened to me, which has given me ample times that I have lived to see another day, even if I was in a hospital. Even though there are days I struggle with my Faith, I know it is Faith that has given me the strength to walk through the Fire. My GOD is BIG.

Cassandra Falun

Car Accident =/

Sorry to you all!

I know I haven’t written in a long time. One reason is I didn’t know what to say to be honest and then when I was starting to think about writing on here again, I got in a car accident. I was going less than the speed limit on a grid road and my car hit a soft spot, spun me in circles over and over until I went flying into a culvert. The scary part was I didn’t role, I flipped three times. I had a passenger in my car and I said over and over in my mind please God keep my passenger safe, I don’t care about me just please keep her safe, as we were flipping. I hit the front end of my car and I just felt us spinning in mid air and I hit the front again, and then again and then finally on all four wheels as the car took down a metal road sign. The airbags did not deploy. I went into immediate shock. My passenger was the one who got out of the car and waved down help. The Fire Fighter said she wasn’t injured; she walked away with nothing… I told him my Dad is going to be mad at me (for killing my car), he said to me “your Dad won’t be mad, he can replace the car but he can’t replace you. God kept you safe, if you would have gone off the road any sooner that road sign would have gone through your windshield. I’m glad I don’t have to tell your family that their daughter wouldn’t be coming home.” Well I was put into a neck brace, moved onto a stretcher, they strapped me in and I was put on a bed with more straps and escorted into the Ambulance. At that point I realized my parents were there and all I could say was, “I’m sorry.” After many x-rays and drugs, I was sent home. I went home with a major concussion, sprained neck, lower back injury, fractured right foot (got stuck under the gas pedal), it took me five days to come out of shock, and little bruises here and there, my head was pretty banged up and swollen is some area’s. This was wake up call number three. I could have died three times, but guess what?! I’m alive, because there is such a thing called miracles. Have faith in God and hope within yourself. That’s what kept me safe June 29^th, 2012 at 9:45PM.

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 Cassandra Falun

Judgment

Jehoshaphat lived in Jerusalem, and he went out again among the people from Beersheba to the hill country of Ephraim and turned them back to the LORD, the God of their fathers. He appointed judges in the land, in each of the fortified cities of Judah. He told them, “Consider carefully what you do, because you are not judging for man but for the LORD, who is with you whenever you give a verdict. Now let the fear of the LORD be upon you. Judge carefully, for with the LORD your God there is no injustice or partiality or bribery.” ~2 Chronicles 19:4-7

Got a thing for fairness? Ever find yourself saying (or thinking) “but that’s not fair”? Let’s be honest—we tend to get a little miffed when we think we’ve been treated unfairly. But what happens when you have to make a judgment call? Every day you make tons of little judgements—opinions about other people and things. What influences your opinions? Your own good sense? What your friends think? What seems fair at the time? Johoshphat wanted his judges to be careful in their rulings—no playing favorites, no standards contrary to God’s. Want to use good judgement? Stick with higher standerds—God’s.

Cassandra Falun

Truth or Dare

Parents, pastors, principals. God isn’t trying to suffocate you with supervision! Actually, he’s placed a combo of people around you to help you do what’s right.

“Amariah the chief priest will be over you in any matter concerning the LORD, and Zebediah son of Ishmael, the leader of the tribe Judah, will be over you in any matter concerning the king, and the Levites will serve as officials before you. Act with cpirage, and may the LORD be with those who do well.” ~2 Chronicals 19:11

Devotion

As Jesus was walking by the Sea of Galilee, Simon called Peter and his brother Andrew. They were casting a net into the lake, for they were fishermen. “Come follow me,” Jesus said, “and I will make you fishers of men.” At once they left their nets and followed him. Going on from there, he saw two other brothers, James son of Zebedee and his brother John. They were in a boat with their father Zebedee, preparing their nets. Jesus called them, and they immediately left their father and followed him. ~Matthew 4:18-22

Did you catch that? Jesus called Simon and Andrew to follow him, and they left their nets at once. He called James and John to follow, and they left their boat immediately. No delays, no excuses, no asking for just a little more time to do their own thing. They knew Jesus was the Messiah {The first thing Andrew did was to find his brother Simon and tell him, “We have found the Messiah” (that is, the Christ). ~John 1:41}, so when he called, they didn’t hesitate to give up everything to follow him. They knew what Jesus offered was worth so much more than what they already had. Do you know that, too? Are you willing to give up everything to follow Jesus?

Cassandra Falun

Bits and Pieces

The glory is Yours, God
All the honor is Yours, God
The power is Yours, God
The glory is Yours, God

(Yours –Steven Curtis Chapman)