Moving To A Different Province

So, I did indeed move outside of the province of where I originally live with my family. At first I was excited and so happy that I got this chance to do something I have a desire for… But, as a couple weeks went by I was having trouble with roommates and I felt like I couldn’t handle it… well I did; kind of a blunt person. The thing is I find it hard sharing a place with two people I don’t know. I had to get a lock on my door because I didn’t know if I could trust them since I had fought with them so much. I called my dad and told him I was thankful I never had any sisters! Drama, drama, drama…

In college I thought things would change, but everything was just like High School all over again… I was/am really disappointed. As it got near the middle of February coming up to our two week break, I struggled a lot. I cried and wish I could just go home to give me more strength by seeing my family. I just couldn’t afford to go home, but my brother called me and said, “Sis I am going home for Valentines weekend want to come?” I was so ecstatic and said, “YES!!!” The four days I was able to be home just made me glad and made me appreciate my family more than I ever have.

When I got back to my basement suite the struggles began again, I feel like a outcast, still do. But, I hid behind my smile, laughter, technology, etc. All my problems since I was fifteen I have avoided had been eating away at me on the inside. As I was looking through my assignments one of them was a technology fast assignment. I could not use any form of social media, but with the exception of calling home, for four days. This caused me to come face to face with all my fears and struggles that were standing in the way of my relationship with Jesus Christ. There were a lot of tears and a lot of prayers. [I will talk more about this in another post.]

The trip back home six hours of driving, a fight broke out between my brother and I. His words cut me deep, he never wants to hear my voice or see my face again. I know that he didn’t mean these words, but the fact is I was close to him as a child and he is all I got. I don’t want to lose him. The fact is I haven’t talked to him since February eighteenth, so prayers would be greatly appreciated for I really do miss him for he only lives half an hour away from me as of right now.

Well, all I can say is when school is done in the middle of April I will be filled with joy and gladness to go home and see my family/friends and my puppies again!!

The Life of A College Student,

Cassandra Falun

Five Weeks!

WOW!! I can not believe how fast school has gone. Five more weeks and school is out. To look back and see that I took a leap of faith and moved out in January to a different province to go to school I am in shock. Knowing God laid all the funds for everything right in the palm of my hands so that schooling for the first semester was possible is unbelievable! I have grown so much in this first semester, I don’t even know where to begin and things may be left out to talk about another time since it is super long.

When I was diagnosed with epilepsy at the age of fifteen I always asked God, “if you love me why would you do this to me?” As my epilepsy got worse my faith in God started to fade away. During that period of time I embarrassed myself a lot, not so much that I regret what I did, I just realize now I didn’t notice how much I was worth. After diagnoses after diagnoses I was tired of trying to be mad at God, so I let it go to see if miracles are real… well I can tell you they are because I have been seizure free for three years. Back then if you told me I would end up in college I would have disagreed with you, let alone Bible College. But, here I stand as I am rebuilding my faith I look onto what my future could be. Is God going to keep me going in this direction? I hope so. He has me standing here in Bible College learning about Children’s Ministry and how to be a Children’s Pastor. Something I have always had a passion for, Children! Not only that, I get the chance to be the change in those kids lives, this means the world to me. Anyways I’m signing off I will post tomorrow on my struggles living in a totally different province then my family and prayer.

The Life of A College Student,

Cassandra Falun

The End of The Holiness Of God

The Holiness of God was a fantastic book! I am now on a two week break of school and right before I left I got my mark back for this book that I had worked so hard on to try and get a really good mark or a perfect mark... I worried way too much because I ended up with a 13.5/15 (90%), that is good enough for me, because I know I tried.

As for now I am on the run with atleast three more assignments that need to be accomplished within these two weeks and I have a midterm exam a week and a half after I get back. Prayer would be greatly appreciated. Hoping all goes well! But, for now, Happy Valentines (I know it is just a Thursday ;P)! I get to go home for this weekend to spend it with my family, they are always a blessing!

The Life of A College Student

Blessings,

Cassandra Falun

Moving Away

Moving to go to College.
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When I came to the realization that I was moving 6 hours away from my family to attend school at the beginning of January I was scared yet excited.
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Now here I am at College since the 7th of January and I am doing great. Of course I miss seeing my family every once and a while but God has a calling for me and it is here right now. I am just attending 1 year for my Children's Ministry Certificate, but please pray for God to show me signs if I am supposed to come back and do 4 years.
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But, other than that I am alive! Eating, living, and homework... yaii!!!
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The Life Of A College Student,

Cassandra Falun

The Holiness Of God

So I am sooo busy that I will only have time to write every once and a while... But, here I am reading a book by R C Sproul called The Holiness Of God for my Theology class. It has an amazing perspective of things going on in this world and some things that you probably have never thought of.
.... This young man first states how the Old Testament opens with, "In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth." But, really we just look at it as the beginning of the book, the beginning of what Christ created for us. Then he states, "How was it done?" ... Ok now is your mind thinking a little bit? I can tell you mine sure was. 
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"In the beginning..." 
--------------It sounds like the beginning of a fairytale: "Once upon a time." The trouble is that in the beginning there was no time as we understand it to be "once upon," Sproul states.
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Well that got me in a deep discussion with my roommate on what came before Genesis like it explains in the book... Now come on you can't tell me that you are not saying/thinking, "well there was nothing but God."
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This was what Sproul shares with us that he got out of his Philosophy class.
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--------------But what in the world is "nothing?" Have you ever tried to think about nothing? Where can we find it? Obviously nowhere. Why? Because it is nothing, and nothing doesn't exist. It can't exist, because if it did, then it would be something and not nothing. Are you starting to get a headache like mine? Think about it for a second. O can't tell you to think about "it" because nothing isn't an "it." I can only say "nothing isn't." ... If we try thinking about nothing, we always wind up thinking about something.
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Ok. Now that is not cool... that changes my whole frame of mind on how us as human beings say, "I did nothing today..." You didn't do nothing you did something! Laid on the couch, watched TV, or whatever!!! But, we are using nothing in the wrong context. "Nothing" has a definition just like everything else in our vocabulary or should I say dictionary... My roommate Bre and I discussed this for four hours!! Can you believe that?! And we came to the conclusion that, something is not nothing, but saying nothing means you are hiding behind something... That's a lot to chew isn't it... As I tried to attempt to go to bed that night I stared at the ceiling for two hours thinking [ok... don't read this book before you are about to go to bed] about his description about "nothing" and "something." [There is so much more to subject, all I got to say is get the book and read it!!]
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Of course as you go on in the book there are a lot of different perspectives on different topics and lots that you will disagree on but it is fasinating on how people have a different frame of mind than others. I thought this was interesting so I had to blog it and share with y'all how the life is out in Bible College.
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The Life Of A College Student

Blessings,

Cassandra Falun