Lost Generation

I am part of a lost generation

I realize this may be a shock but

“Happiness comes from within”

Is a lie, and

“Money will make me happy”

So in 30 years I will tell my children

They are not the most important thing in my life.

My employer will know that I have my priorities straight because

work

is more important than

family

I tell you this

Once upon a time

Families stayed together

But this will not be true in my era

This is a quick fix society

Experts tell me

30 years from now I will be celebrating my 10^th anniversary of my divorce

I do not concede that

I will live in a country of my own making

in the future

environmental destruction will be the norm.

No longer can it be said that

My peers and I care about this earth

It will be evident that

My generation is apathetic and lethargic

It is foolish to presume that

There is hope.

And all of this will come true unless we choose to reverse it.

There is hope.

It is foolish to presume that

My generation is apathetic and lethargic

It will be evident that

My peers and I care about this earth

No longer can it be said that

Environmental destruction will be the norm.

In the future

I will live in a country of my own making.

I do not concede that

30 years from now I will be celebrating my 10^th anniversary of my divorce

Experts tell me

This is a quick fix society

But this will not be true in my era

Families stayed together

Once upon a time.

I tell you this

Family

Is more important than work

My employer will know that I have my priorities straight because

They are not the most important thing in my life,

So in 30 years I will tell my children

“Money will make me happy”

Is a lie, and

“Happiness comes from within”.

I realize this may be a shock but

I can change the world and so can you.

~Unknown

Inspiration ~ Hope

"My name is Serena and I'm eleven years old and I have a disease called Primary Immune Disorder. Your bodies produce millions of white blood cells everyday, well mine only produces hundreds and my immune system doesn't work right and so in order to help I'm getting infusions. Prier to getting sick I could go to church on Wednesdays to be part of the choir for the kids, it was really fine and I could go to church on Sundays also. I wasn't sick every weekend and I didn't have to get infusions and I could play outside with my friends, have sleepovers, go to birthday parties like any normal kid could do. I can't go to birthday parties no more, I can't have sleepovers, I can't even go to my families birthday parties unless it's on a school night because I'm sick every weekend 'cause I get infusions. It's really hard because I don't even get to go to church anymore and that's something I really miss doing. This January my father died on a Thursday... he killed himself in Washington, Pennsylvania. The Police came to our house and my mother went out to talk to him and then she came back into the house with the officer and he was asking questions. My mom told me that something might have happened to daddy. She continued to talk to the Police and a few minutes later she told me he was dead and so I ran up to my room and cried. Now just recently my papa just passed away. Since my dad had died he was very close to me, he was like another father to me and I was very close to him. I was crying, I cried the whole way there and I went and sat on the lil' bench. I couldn't go into the house because the body was still there and I couldn't handle that. Momma went in there to help nana and I just sat on the bench and kept crying. I got to a point where I couldn't cry anymore and I just sat there. I sat there and thought about him... it was really sad. I know some of you know me, I know a lot of you know me because I used to go into church with my little mask on and shake everyone's hands, hugged the preacher and go sit down before the music ended. I miss you. I miss all of you, shaking your hands, hugging you and seeing you. I miss it all. These treatments aren't working. They're not working, I am still getting sick a lot. I need you to pray for me and I need you to think of me... and all of that. My favorite verse is {Hebrew 13:5 -- Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, cause God has said, "Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you."} This gives you a sense of comfort because he's always there, even when you think you are alone and you think no one understands... well he does! I'm not angry with God. I know He can do it, He will do it. I just have to have faith and believe in him, if I do he will heal me. It just takes some time."

This girl is an inspiration. She gave me hope as I struggle with everything that I find wrong with me. Trust, faith and belief is all I need and I say it millions of times in one day. He will heal me... but it all takes time. Thanks for everyone that has been there for me and praying for me I appreciate it. This little girl doesn't know us, but she needs prayer. We want to thank God for this little life and we pray that you will remove this obstacle, pray that you will cleanse her and set her free of all sicknesses. Jesus name...

Keep Serena in mind. <3

Love Always and Forever,
Cassandra Falun

Graduated o_O

Being graduated has made me more scared then ever. I am jobless, no one will hire me and I am prayin to God that this last interview will help me start my future.

Bein graduated:
-- makes me feel the pressure of movin out... but I can't afford it.
-- makes me wonder how I will be able to pay for my medication.
-- makes me think on how will I be able to go/get to school when I decide to go back.
-- makes me overwhelmed on how will I be able to survive not having a drivers license.
-- makes me think on how this will all turn out when it's all put together.
-- makes me wish that I just was back in elementary school when the biggest problem was deciding what color to use on a picture.
-- makes me think about how many times a day I use the word 'I'. How selfish I have become, when there are millions of others out there who don't even have the ability to go to school or even get to eat for that matter. Why don't I put everything in God's hands and trust/ believe he will help/ lead me in the right direction?
-- makes me scared.

I'm falling apart and I have lost my path... I know where to go, but I always get mad at myself for letting myself stray off so far... to do the things I did. I'm not proud.

But my favorite quote that I even put in my last post was:

"I don't have to know your name to know your pain...
I have my own.
I don't have to see your home to know your shame...
I have my own.
But someone loved me just the way I am,
And someone loves you just the way you are."
~Reggie Dabbs

That someone will always be in my heart... I asked him to be when I was 5 and he hasn't left my side.

Love Always & Forever ...:::Cassandra Falun:::...